(Part 1/4)
*sigh*
How do I do this? Let’s drop the facade...lower the mask...let’s be human for a moment, not a username and profile pic...
And that’s not to say I’ve been fake. That’s not to say that in the many years I’ve spent on the lego message boards I haven’t been me. Because I have been me.
No, I just wanna be real, and human here for a second...down to earth...because I’m not overdramatizing this here...this...this sucks...this really hurts...I’m in college and I’m telling you that I feel like I’m about to cry, as I’m writing this in a note before posting it on the boards...
Because, wether you believe me or not, the truth is this is so difficult...like, how am I supposed to just say goodbye to a place and to the people that has/have had such an impact on my life? There’s so many thoughts, so many questions rushing through my head right now.
So I posted a retirement message once already...aren’t I overdoing it with a second one? I don’t wanna seem like I’m begging for attention here...
Do they even remember me? It’s been five months?
Where did everybody go?
Tad left? How could I have missed that?
Do I really want to do this? I mean, it’s hard to stay active, but really? There’s no turning back here. If I do this, I do this. No logging back on. No being semi active. I’m saying goodbye to people I’ve called my friends for so long...forever...REAL PEOPLE behind those screens, more than just usernames. That’s something I think we forget too often. That behind the username is a real person. This is it. This is final. No turning back. No changing my mind.
Look, I said I’m gonna be human with you guys for a second, so let’s do this...
I wish I could...I could just paint the perfect image for you guys of what this place means to me...of what this place is to me...
So...please...bear with me here as I try...
Hold on to something, this is gonna be a long one...multiple parts, so get those eye drops ready...